Most people think they’ve changed all the time.
They start a new habit.
Their mind becomes quieter.
They react differently than usual.
They take these moments as proof.
Proof that something shifted.
Proof that they are no longer who they were.
Proof that the old problem has been left behind.
But most of what we call change is temporary.
It is situational.
It depends on energy.
It depends on circumstances being favorable.
You can force change by exerting a lot of energy. By forcing yourself into a shape that you are not, at least not yet.
You can struggle your way into better behavior.
You can suppress what you do not like about yourself.
You can override instinct with intention.
And it will feel good,
until it all crashes down.
Because force is expensive.
It drains attention.
It consumes willpower.
The problem you “solved” is quietly waiting for your energy to run out. And when it does, the problem returns. Maybe exactly as before, maybe in a new disguise.
And that’s the moment it hits you.
You thought you dealt with it.
You thought you improved.
But you didn’t really change.
You didn’t solve anything. You only kept the problem away for a while. And that’s how most people live. They deal with the same returning problems again and again, convincing themselves each time that it’s different.
This time feels right.
This time will last.
But it rarely does.
Most people mistake effort for transformation.
They confuse discipline with resolution.
They tighten their grip.
They add rules.
They monitor themselves more closely.
They become a full time supervisor of their own behavior.
Every thought is inspected.
Every impulse negotiated.
Every reaction managed.
And for a while, it works.
They feel in control.
They feel ahead of the problem.
They feel improved.
But nothing fundamental has moved.
The same thoughts still appear.
The same reactions still knock.
The same impulses still wait.
They are not gone.
Only postponed.
So vigilance becomes necessary.
You have to stay alert.
You have to keep reminding yourself.
You have to keep managing what you claim to have solved.
There is no rest in this.
This is not freedom.
This is maintenance.
And maintenance never ends.
Real change does not require upkeep.
It does not need reminders.
It does not need enforcement.
It does not depend on you being at your best.
If you need constant effort to remain changed,
you are not changed.
You are just holding your breath.
That is why the problem comes back.
You stayed in the same identity.
You kept the same relationship to it.
You only altered behavior.
You tried to overpower it.
You tried to outrun it.
You tried to outthink it.
But problems are patient.
They wait for fatigue.
They wait for distraction.
They wait for the moment you stop performing.
And when you relax,
they return as if nothing happened.
Not to punish you.
Not to mock you.
Just to continue what was never finished.
This is why so many people feel exhausted by self improvement.
They are fighting something that should have dissolved.
They live in cycles of progress and collapse.
Confidence and quiet shame.
And the problems keep returning, because the root was never touched.
You will know you’ve finally changed when the problem doesn’t return.
Same conditions.
Same triggers.
No problem.
Not by effort, discipline, or negotiation.
Only a complete indifference to what you used to call a problem.
When you’ve truly changed, you don’t feel victorious.
You feel clear.
The problem doesn’t disappear because you defeated it.
It disappears because you no longer resonate with it.
And one day you realize
the thing that used to circle your life
has quietly stopped coming back.
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Milo Morrison